Mother's Day and Becoming A Mom

I celebrated my first Mother's Day this past weekend which was such a weird feeling.  I'm still getting used to the idea of being a mom.  Of course I know I have a son but it's so weird to think of myself as a mother.  Baby D and my husband made an awesome day for me and I couldn't ask for a better 1st Mother's Day.  It involved sleeping it (woohoo, 8:30!!!), lots of good food, and some awesome gifts.  Baby D/his daycare also made me a card which is the most awesome.  It has his cute little footprints on it in the shape of a butterfly.

I've come to realize just how becoming a mother has changed me and my outlook on things.  Sure, people tell you how a baby changes things.  But it also changes you.  What used to seem important before Baby D, is no longer important.  To be honest, I haven't had my hair done since before Baby D was born, my sense of style has changed now that I have a bit of a belly pooch thanks to pregnancy and a c-section, and stressing out about how others perceive me are a few of things that have changed.  I'm a mom and my son comes before anything.  (Thankfully my job understands this and can accommodate if Baby D is sick or if something were to happen).  I rush off to work in the morning, work extremely hard and more efficiently than before, make sure to leave right on time to rush to pick up Baby D and spend what very few precious hours we have together before bedtime and starting the day over again.  Our house is definitely not as clean as it usually is or how I normally would like it to be.  Life is not at all about me anymore.  Becoming a mother makes you selfless...to devote your time and your energy into your little baby.  It's about making sure he or she is ok, that they're growing and developing and become this really awesome adult one day.  Of course I still have goals for myself and still need to take care of myself, but I feel like my eyes have really opened to life itself.  Having a child is amazing.  I am still amazing the my husband and I created Baby D and that Baby D is a little piece of both him and I.  The emotions I feel towards Baby D is something I have never felt and never knew I could feel.